Thursday

N is feeling much better.

I got to cuddle with him on the couch yesterday. And then he took a 2 hour nap! He never naps so he had to have been feeling badly. He woke up and his fever was about gone. And by dinner time he was ready to play out side and was back to his busy self. ;o)

The fever was still gone today so he's back at school.

The kids all made him a get well card yesterday, it was so sweet. E brought it home but didn't want to give it to him....lol He's funny. He insists that things be shared with him but isn't so interested in sharing his things with others. Well more specifically with N.

N has really been doing great. He's learning so much! He will be graduating from pre-school and going to Kindergarten next year! Holy cow! Where did the time go?! He's been with us for 2 1/2 years now, it seems like forever...and only a minute.

He's been talking alot about Ethiopia lately. How he came before E, and that E wasn't there when he was. And that Daddy, mommy and S came to get him. But S stayed home when we got E.

Yesterday I was watching Adoption Story on Discovery, as he was waking up from his nap. The couple on the show was adopting a little girl from Ethiopia. So there was a lot of footage from Addis. He was watching intently. I wondered how much he actually remembered, if anything. Or if he was just looking at some random city he didn't at all recall. He didn't say much other than he wasn't really understanding that the baby girl would no longer live in Ethiopia but was going to live in Canada. We talked a little bit about it. And I asked him if he was still thinking about wanting another sister. He said yes, but that she needed to be older than him. I asked him why. And he didn't know.. just that she should be older. He then said to me "If she's mean, can we send her back?"

I had to pause for a minute... is this what he thinks we will be sending him back??!!
I told him that there was no way we would send a new sister back. That like him, she would be with us forever. That he was stuck with us... forever and ever. He then asked if E would go back if we got another child.

Again I reassured him that no one was going "back".
Mommy and daddy are here to stay ...forever... or as long as we live.

Looks like we have some more conversations to have about family, and how this one is for good. There is that sad realization that he did have a family before ours, one that loved him and wanted him, but that could not care for him. He is aware that not all families stay together and that he and E are no longer with their first families. Just a reminder that we need to constantly remind him that he is and was loved, and that he's a permanent fixture here now, but always in the hearts of his first family.