Wednesday, May 20, 2009

My kids...

I love being a mom. There are days when it's tough and I just want to crawl in a corner...but those are few and far between.

The other night I was at the graduation for our friend J. After the ceremony I was standing with S and Z, we were just hanging out talking. I was overcome at one moment with love for these 2. There was just something about standing there with my babies that are no longer babies.

When my brother and I are together with my mom, just us, she always says look D it's our kids.

That's how I felt on Friday night. Don't anyone get their panties in a bunch, I wasn't feeling exclusive of N and E....just filled with gratitude for my 2 oldest.

They started me on this journey of motherhood, of self discovery, joy, sadness, humility, gray hair and laugh lines.

One that has grown and moved on to College. One that's growing into such a young lady.

I look at them and see myself. I can see glimpses of them as toddlers. Z my little shy guy, if I had worn skirts he would have hidden in them. My poor little guy that didn't really know how to be comfortable in his own skin. Who is now very much a young man of Christ. He is a leader, he loves to be with people and talk to them, to engage and has many friends. I too was very shy as a child, never wanted the spotlight or attention. I too have been transformed by Christ. I still see glimpses of the little boy, shy and scared, but growing in strength and love.

I see my S so beautiful and strong. So sure of herself and confident, ready to take on the world if she sees a wrong. Not afraid to speak her mind, and sometimes opens her mouth and speaks before thinking....she gets this from her dad. LOL She also has a heart that is 3 times too big. She gets this from her daddy too. She beautiful both on the inside and out.

If I had not had such great kids already, I don't know that I would have been open to more. They have taught, and still teach me what it means to love, grow and learn.

Soon they will be gone from the nest and in their own homes. ugh... I will miss them.

There will be a day soon when I look at my N and E and think the same thing. They will be grown and moving on. I look forward to watching them grow. Seeing them transform.

I love being a mom.


Cindy said...

I love being a mom too. There is no job more rewarding or fulfilling than this. And you are an awesome mom. I know how you feel, looking at your oldest, and wondering where the time has gone. Ok, it makes me cry just thinking about it.
love you.

Our journey following Christ said...

I agree with your assessment! I sometimes look at my 2 older (1 in college, 1 a jr. in high school) kids and my heart feels like bursting with pride. We see them through so much stuff - some good and some bad - that it's just wonderful to see it all come together.

It gives me courage to raise our 2 little boys and adopt again having been through it once and seeing that it all can turn out ok, given enough prayer!

I also love being a mom.