churning....

Do you ever just have days when your mind just has so much on it that you can hardly contain it all?

lol...I have them frequently... but I am hoping to find a day, or even a hour when I can sit down and just listen to what God has to say. I read on someone else's blog earlier about taking a bath. There's an idea! ;o)

I have so many things I want to do. Things I wish I could change. Places to go, things to do, people to see...work to do.

I regularly have to tell myself to stop and breathe and focus on the here and now. I need to make sure I take the 'I' out and put the God in, and follow what He would have me do.

Have you ever seen the movie "Ever After"? The prince at one point says something along the line of "I used to think if I cared about one thing I would have to care about everying and that would be too hard." I used to be the same way. Just the other day I was talking to my mom about one of the boy's siblings left in Ethiopia. How I wonder what has happened to them, it's been so very heavy on my heart recently. I want to know what's become of them, and hope to be able to meet them when we go back next year. My mom said that I probably don't want to know. Sure knowing could be more painful than not, but if there is someway I can help them, I feel like I need to. And if there isn't then at least I can pray with a face in my mind instead of this empty spot now. Just because it hurts doesn't mean I don't want to know.

I had lunch today with my friend T, she and I were best friends in High School. It was so much fun just to chat. We talked about how different life is now than it used to be. Who would have thunk this is where I would be now. I was not so much otherly focused then... or shoot even 10 yrs ago. I love how God does things.

Hey check out what these guys are doing. We may partner with them some while in Ethiopia next year. Still gathering and learning and praying about God's leading.