There was this moment as if time had stopped and I realized we are a family. Not some weird revelation... but this moment of everything being...right.
It wasn't anything E said, or anything profound...I just had a moment of clarity that spoke to my heart.
Sometimes life gets ridiculously crazy and there are moments where I can hardly think straight because there is so much in my head. I am almost to the point that I cannot even read a plain old book because I am afraid all of the other stuff in my head will fall out if I put more in it...lol but I digress.
In the busy-ness of life...I was able to see our life as a family as being the right thing. :) I never thought it was wrong...but in parenthood and sometimes adoption parenthood there are moments when you wonder why God trusts you with so much. Ya know what I mean?
But we have been blessed. Blessed beyond belief!
I often tell my Big's that. That they blessed us so much that we just had to adopt because we wanted more of that blessing. Now I can tell my Little's the same thing... they have blessed us so much that we want more of it. I guess it's selfish really. Wanting more of the blessing... I mean we can't afford to take our kids to Disney, or to send our S to Germany to visit her friend this Spring or to get new cars or go shopping on a whim. We are pretty poor monetarily... but so very rich in all the blessings we have been given.
Life is right... I am SO looking forward to what God has planned for us! I will admit to being a bit scared... I mean I know there are obstacles... and issues coming our way... but I know HE's got a plan. And I know HE will get us through.
It's is well with my soul....
3 comments:
YES!!!! Amen to that- ME TOOOOO!!!!! Call me selfish baby because I want it all :) of God anyway!!!
You and your children are rich in blessings!
I know EXACTLY what you mean! God has a plan for each of us, and we just need to TRUST and FOLLOW Him! My heart has been having that strong longing to go back again. Khloe NEEDS a playmate closer in age, and I cannot stop thinking about it. I'm just giving it all over to God right now, though, as the finances to start again just aren't there. My husband never says 'no' anymore... he talks about 'if' and 'when' we go back in the future, so I just have to respect and honor him in the process, too, and know that God will open the doors in HIS perfect timing, not mine!
I'm SO excited to follow along on your journey though. You have been a sweet support to me (I recently reviewed some of the comments on our old posts from our travels to Khloe, and your words were SO encouraging!) so I cannot wait to lend you prayers and support in return. Have a blessed week! <><
Hugs,
Tanya
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