Sorry for being cryptic yesterday...had to work out some stuff with God and Hubby.
I found out yesterday that one of the sweetest babies that I got to love on while in ET is now a waiting child. She doesn't have a family to love her. There were no waiting families that wanted her.
Shoot writing this is harder than I imagined....
When I found out I thought perhaps I had misread God's leading that now is not the time to adopt again. How could I have been given the joy of holding her and loving her and praying over her, only to find out that she could actually be mine?! Was it too good to be true?!
My heart hurts for her... I HATE that she's still there waiting. I can still feel her tiny little body in my arms.
I spoke to D about it and he still says no. He still feels as though this is not the plan for us. He's still sure.
There's a part of me that truly knows that too... I just don't understand it. I don't understand why!!!
Why aren't we supposed to adopt again...I know HE knows how many children need homes. I know HE knows that I would take another child in a heart beat. I know HE knows we still have a room in our home that could use filling.
I also know that HE knows that there's another family out there that will love that sweet baby girl.
Just this morning while I was still praying about this…I felt like God was stirring some other thoughts. Moving me towards the plan He has for us. A plan I think D would be …and is willing to stand with me on.
It’s not that D doesn’t feel for the children that are waiting…he does…he just is not feeling God’s plan is to adopt them ourselves.
So we move forward with the mission team… we move forward in showing others the need that’s out there. We move forward in praying for His leading in how best to care for the poor and hurting and lonely.
A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. God sets the lonely in families, he leads forth the prisoners with singing... Psalm 68: 5&6
So we do not get to love a sweet baby girl, that I cannot forget…but we move forward knowing someone else will. Knowing God loved her first…and will love her last…and another family will get to in between.
If you would like to know more information about her contact Adoption Ministry of YWAM - Ethiopia ...or email me and I will put you in touch with the person you need to speak to.