“But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.” (1 John 1:7)
Here is a revelation for you.
I do not like to be around people ...one on one.
I can stand in front of a group of you and speak about all manner of things, but I am not so comfortable with the one on one.
It's funny because as a youth I hated anything that made me stand out. And for heaven's sake do not make me speak in front of people.
Funny how things change.
I truly have to pep talk myself into one on one situations now. Once I am around others I enjoy the time, usually, but I truly have to work at being friendly...lol It's not because I want to be un-friendly, I just have to work past all those old insecurities. Why would any one want to talk to me, why would someone want to be my friend, what if I say something stupid, or wrong... or just have nothing to say? On and on the list goes... it's the other voices I hear in my ears I have Pride and Judgement on one side and Fear and Unworthiness on the other.
Geez, no wonder I have such a hard time listening to God...lol He has some pretty stiff competition.
The good thing about God is that He is so much bigger than those voices. Gosh I sound like I need a psych ward huh?
What I have learned through the years is what the above scripture states... when we walk in Christ, we have fellowship. Without that fellowship, we aren't walking in the light. If I am not walking in the light, I am not "shiny". ;o)
When I was discussing this with my friend recently we both concluded that part of our issue is that we weren't walking more closely with God, nor were we walking with other Christians as we would like. We go to church but haven't been to Sunday school in more than a month. I am not in an organized bible study, and my personal study had been lacking.
I need that fellowship!
I have been making a great effort to walk my physical body, trying to get myself in shape. But I haven't put as much effort into my spiritual self.
This weekend I pulled out an old study that I had on hand but never done. I think I will start it and will be asking hubby to work on it with me.
We have started back to Sunday School. I also look forward to the study I will be doing with our Mission Team.
I want to walk together with other Christians... and non-Christians for that matter... ;o) It's the fellowship that counts, no matter what my inner insecurities say.
I have some fun pics from the weekend to share once I get them uploaded.