Monday, December 13, 2010

He is ALWAYS Right

About 3 years ago we were in the process of moving into our second adoption from Ethiopia. It was February then… I was in BJ’s on a Thursday and got a call from our SW who was doing our HS. She had just gotten word that there was a set of twins about to be born in PA to a mother with hiv. They had no families ready and willing to think about this idea. She asked if we would be willing to take these twins.

I went into obsession mode….lol I have always wanted twins. These were close…not over seas, and I knew the odds of the babies actually being hiv+ were slim to none, but that didn’t matter to me. I WANTED these twins.

D did not.

I went on a women’s weekend and obsessed about these twins. I wanted these them.

D did not.

I prayed and talked about it, and prayed and talked about it. I read my bible for clues….

Prayed some more, and then asked others to pray with me.

The last day of the weekend my friend A was giving the sermon and I suddenly knew that I was wrong. I did not want the twins. I wasn’t supposed to be their mother. It was as if God had said to me that there was a little boy in Ethiopia waiting for me and that I needed to go get him.

E was my little boy. And he needed us!

I have been doing the same with the China situation. I wanted it. I looked at those babies and wanted to have them home with me. A sweet little girl with pokey piggy tails, a beautiful little boy with a dimpled grin. I could see my home blessed with them.

D did not.

Until today…

Today I opened my FB page and saw this blog post listed. I looked at that sweet little face, those beautiful little baby fingers, and that smooth baby Ethiopian skin.

My heart is calmed. My angst over ‘losing’ China is gone. My search is no longer needed. There is a child/children missing us in Ethiopia. I need to go find them.

I sit here in tears…thinking about how good my God is. He knows. He knows! He’s always right. I love that He loves me enough to tell me no…


Andrea said...

GOD BLESS YOU! I am thankful you can/could see past your own wants to GODS wants. So many times I have messed up similar situations...wanting things "my" way instead of GODS way. I praise GOD HE was able to speak past your wants and deeply embed HIS wants as the desire of your heart.

cherrie said...
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cherrie said...

Thank you for sharing your heart! God has this one! He has created your family from the beginning of time, follow Him to where your children are.

Unknown said...

WOW! I felt called to Ethiopia for SO LONG and my hubby IN NO WAY felt led there. God instead lead us to embryo adoption and now has let me know that WE ARE COMPLETE. I NEVER thought we would be but now I am confident that we are.. HUGS!

LisaShaw said...

Oh sweet one, GOD has your back! He has everything already PREPLANNED in every way. Keep your eyes on His will and trust Him.

I'm praying...

Adeye said...

What a beautiful testimony of the Father's leading you, friend. Just wonderful. He does ALWAYS know what's best--even if we don't know it at the time.


Cindy said...

I wish you all the best as you set out in this direction! And with the girl hair....We are here for you ; )

Andrea said...

:) Thanks Cindy!!!

Andrea said...

Thank you for your comments straight from the heart on Arise 2 write, today.

Our journey following Christ said...

Ok, you now have me in tears! Yea!! I'm so glad you have complete peace and little Juddah had something to do with it. Did you comment and tell Cherrie that? She would be blessed, I know!

That little Juddah is pretty darn adorable, isn't he???

Jackie said...

Hey Andrea! Thank you so much for joining to follow along with my blog recently! I wanted to stop by today to meet you and so blessed by your blog and this post! I'm following along with you now, too!

Thank God He knows and He's always right and faithful to lead us by His Spirit as we look to Him!

Merry Christmas to you and yours!!