Saturday, December 11, 2010

Grace Is Enough

Phil 4:11
I have learned to be satisfied with the things I have and with everything that happens.

Test this question: What if God's only gift to you were his grace to save you. Would you be content? You beg him to save the life of your child. You plead with him to keep your business afloat. You implore him to remove the cancer from your body. (You plead for the child in your dreams...inserted by me)What if the answer is, "My grace is enough." Would you be content?
You see from heaven's perspective grace is enough. If God did nothing more than save us from hell, could anyone complain?...Having been given eternal life, dare we grumble at an aching body? Having been given heavenly riches, dare we bemoan earthly poverty?...
If you have eyes to read these words, hands to hold this book, and the means to own volume he has already given you grace upon grace. ~ Max Lucado Grace for the Moment Volume 1 (In the Grip of Grace)

The devotion above was from December 9th...preparing me for December 10 when we would find out that we would not be accepted by China to parent one of their children. My husband has an indiscretion from 20 yr ago that they feel deems us as unfit parents. This breaks my heart.... I think we are pretty good parents. Not perfect by ANY stretch of the word...but pretty good. And who the heck is the same person they were 20 yrs ago???!!!

It is what it is. There is no reason to get sad or upset.

I prayed, I asked. He has a better plan.

I was telling my friend yesterday that I know He has a plan. It will be the perfect plan. I had just been envisioning a tiny little girl of Asian descent with pokey little piggy tails and pink dresses.

I am then reminded that there are mommas out there that have prayed for years and years to see little tiny faces that look like the man they love, with blonde eyes like grandma or freckles or dimples because they run in the family.

I trust God. I know He loves me. I know He has a plan. His grace is enough. The child/children He has planned for us are the perfect ones for us... no matter where they are from or who they look like.


LisaShaw said...

Precious one, I'm very sorry to hear this YET I know GOD has a plan as you said. I'm praying for your family now.

Keep your eyes on Jesus the Author and Finisher of your faith.

My love to you and Christmas blessings!

Kelley said...

I am so sorry to hear your news. God must have a different plan for you, a PERFECT plan, of course. It's just so, so hard when His plan and our plan is different.

Merry Christmas and God Bless you and your family during this season!

TJ said...

Can so relate - we learned early in our process that my DH's underage drinking charge from 30 years prior was sufficient to preclude us from adopting from Kazakhstan. Thought we'd aged out for Ethiopia, but then found out that we were eligible and able to adopt our 2 beauties. It will happen.

Leslie said...

That is hard, even when you know God is going to work things out for His plan and ultimate good. Praying for Him to lead you along every step.

Adeye said...

Oh my goodness, friend, I am so sorry, I know it hurts so much. BUT....this has not taken the Almighty by surprise!!!! He knew it would be like this and will use it as a stepping stone to YOUR child. He will open the doors that need to be opened, and shut those not from Him--all to lead you to the ONE He has chosen to be a part of your precious family. Keep looking forward. Kepp trusting. Keep hanging on.

Wanda said...

Yes He has a plan and it's good and not evil. As you trust in Him, may He give you the desires of your heart.