I have learned to be satisfied with the things I have and with everything that happens.
Test this question: What if God's only gift to you were his grace to save you. Would you be content? You beg him to save the life of your child. You plead with him to keep your business afloat. You implore him to remove the cancer from your body. (You plead for the child in your dreams...inserted by me)What if the answer is, "My grace is enough." Would you be content?
You see from heaven's perspective grace is enough. If God did nothing more than save us from hell, could anyone complain?...Having been given eternal life, dare we grumble at an aching body? Having been given heavenly riches, dare we bemoan earthly poverty?...
If you have eyes to read these words, hands to hold this book, and the means to own volume he has already given you grace upon grace. ~ Max Lucado Grace for the Moment Volume 1 (In the Grip of Grace)
The devotion above was from December 9th...preparing me for December 10 when we would find out that we would not be accepted by China to parent one of their children. My husband has an indiscretion from 20 yr ago that they feel deems us as unfit parents. This breaks my heart.... I think we are pretty good parents. Not perfect by ANY stretch of the word...but pretty good. And who the heck is the same person they were 20 yrs ago???!!!
It is what it is. There is no reason to get sad or upset.
I prayed, I asked. He has a better plan.
I was telling my friend yesterday that I know He has a plan. It will be the perfect plan. I had just been envisioning a tiny little girl of Asian descent with pokey little piggy tails and pink dresses.
I am then reminded that there are mommas out there that have prayed for years and years to see little tiny faces that look like the man they love, with blonde eyes like grandma or freckles or dimples because they run in the family.
I trust God. I know He loves me. I know He has a plan. His grace is enough. The child/children He has planned for us are the perfect ones for us... no matter where they are from or who they look like.