Monday, November 30, 2009

Holes...

This is why I love blog world!

Most of the people that read my blog are from the adoption world, at least those that comment.... ;o) And you get it! ;o)

And if you don't get it at least you will pray for me, or you keep it to yourself... love ya for that too! ;o)

This whole wanting a girl thing can only be from God.

Don't get me wrong, I love little girls, I love my S... but I have a soft spot for little boys. I love my guys. Girls have so much drama and estrogen. Honestly I have enough of that on my own. ;o)

So this whole longing for a little girl has got to be from Him.

Back when we were moving forward with E's adoption we were given the opportunity to possibly adopt an infant set of twins, domestically. I agonized over the decision for several days until God very clearly said to me.... "there is a little boy out there waiting for you". I just knew in my heart that these babies would be taken care of, but that there was a little boy out there that needed me. It was my E.

I feel the same way this time. There is a little girl out there some where.....

We were at a restaurant for my parent's anniversary on Sunday night and a couple came in with 2 little girls. They were of Asian descent. The littlest one was maybe 2 yrs old, and just the most beautiful little girl. She sat across the room observing us the whole time. My heart ached for a little girl just like her.

So... perhaps someday my heart will be filled. D's not ready.

Maybe if E would tell daddy every day (like he tells me) that he wants a baby sister, I might see that day sooner rather than later. ;o)

I do have a mission team to complete. That calling has not changed, and I am more excited than ever to go!

I know God knows my heart just like He knows each of you dreaming and praying for your own little person sized hole's to be filled.

Thank you for your prayers, your assurance of my sanity, and support. ;o) My prayers are with each of you as well.

Can't wait to see where God leads us. I just know it will be better than good!

5 comments:

blessedmomto8 said...

YES IT WILL BE...BETTER THAN GOOD! :) Can't wait til HE reveals it to you and D!

Nicole Anderson said...

I am praying for you!It is so hard when you feel God telling you something and your spouse does not feel the same. I feel like I am in the same spot, but I pray that God will open and close all doors!

Adeye said...

All in His perfect timing. You'll see :) I'm so glad I have a front row seat here--waiting to see it all unfold :) Just glorious.

Cindy said...

My heart hurts for you. Because I know that longing for a child. Because I love you so much, and I dont want you to have that feeling. But, those are the times we truly fall to our knees and cry out to God arent they? Your faith is strengthening through this. Trust in Him. He will provide the way to that little girl in His perfect timing.
In the meantime, I am praying hard for you...um, and for God to really give your hubby a HUGE sign that this is HIS will!!!! :)

Abbey said...

Your blog is beautiful Andrea. These last couple of posts have really touched me. :)