Sunday, November 29, 2009

Crazy?

So I haven't really kept it a secret. I am ready for another baby... child...another addition period.

So why is it that I am the only one ready?

D and I were at dinner on Friday night with our couples group. D said something about my Big Ben bio clock...lol And the other 2 couples looked at me like I had 8 eyes.

One couple has 2 teens and are literally counting the days until they move out. The other couple is just happy with the 3 kids they have.

To be honest, the reaction was painful.

Why is it crazy to want to love another child?

Nope we do not have 20 - 30k laying around to adopt another one.

Nope N didn't transition well with E. But we have gotten over that hump and he would LOVE a sister. He needs a girl to play house with. ;o)

Nope we don't have the money to send S to college laying around but that's what they make student loans for isn't it?

None of my children are lacking. For anything. Love, food, shelter, education, goodness knows they have too much 'stuff'.

Why is it crazy to want another child to love? To give another child a home that doesn't have one?

Having more children isn't for every one. Adoption isn't for every one. Having children period isn't for every one.

My arms ache for another child. My heart hurts for the one I feel is missing.

So...call me crazy.

I guess I am.

p.s. if anyone has an extra 20k laying around... I could use it... so could a little girl somewhere, I know it! ;o)

11 comments:

Kathy said...

Oh andrea, me too. I would love a little girl too! I've been trying to convince the boys that they would like a sister too. I would LOVE another little baby, but I have to many 'buts' in my vocabulary these days too.

Tiffany said...

You are NOT crazy, you are following your heart and God's will for your life.

btw...if you find a generous donor, you can send them our way too!

Adeye said...

Oh my friend--I WISH I had the money lying around to give you. How wonderful would that be! I soooo understand the longing in your heart. I honestly believe it is a God-thing. Just you wait and see--He'll bless you with the desire of your heart. He doesn't birth dreams in our hearts to torture us. Nope--they're there for a reason. He's not done with you yet :)

Mmmm---I wonder where your daughter will come home from :)

Holli said...

You sound as sane (or insane) as me!!! ;) I to wish I had 20k and I would give it to you in a HEART BEAT!!! One less orphan SOUNDS GREAT TO ME!!!!!
Will be praying for your little girl!:)

Are These Kids All Yours? said...

Hey, YOU ARE NOT CRAZY to me :) Perfectly normal...... :)

CLASSIFIED said...

Im right there with you, wanting another.......waiting on my hubby's heart want another too! A girl this time for me too!
Susan

Bonnie said...

Totally get it! Just wait - adopt one more kiddo and people will really begin to tell you you are nuts - oh well. I'd rather be nuts for Christ than plain and boring without Him!
Any chance your company has an adoption reimbursement program? or might start one? doesn't cost them too much really and does gain them alot of good will and employee loyalty.

Our journey following Christ said...

If the Lord has a little girl for you, He can easily change your husbands heart. It's not a problem for Him!

In the eyes of the world and unfortunately in the eyes of way too many Christians, you are certifiably crazy. But I'm with Bonnie...call me crazy but I'd choose the crazy, adventurous, exciting life over the mundane one any day. Being in the center of God's will is not the safest and calmest place to be but it is the BEST! It' also not always the most popular.

Blessings,
Laura

blessedmomto8 said...

Totally feel you!! That is why I'm pregnant :) I felt the pull to Ethiopia however my DH did not & we have our miracle baby on the way! God is marvelous at the way he works on husbands and wives hearts differently.

LisaShaw said...

My heart and prayers are surrounding you right now. Love you.

Andrea H. said...

Yehahhhh, you go girl!! Your husband will be ready eventually. As my dear husband tells everyone "I bumrush him", hehe. But in the end he is way better that I could ever be with the little ones. So there you go, keep talking and talking and talking and eventually he will get annoyed and yes say yes. Okay, sorry, just kidding but I would only say that to you!