Last night I had the joy of having all my kids under my roof.
We had gone out to get costumes for the little guys, so they went down to sleep pretty happy boys.
After N and E-Man were sleeping, the older 2 were just kind of hanging out.
S decided she wanted to bake pumpkin seeds so she and her daddy carved 2 little pumpkins that we had gotten from my mom. S had gone online, found some fun recipes for pumpkin seeds... who knew there were so many ways???... and proceeded to bake.
D was next to me doing his homework for BSF, the boys were sleeping...Z and S were messing around with each other the way siblings do... it was Better than Good!
I have been doing alot of reflecting lately about family and how blessed I am.
Recently, I have been having this bizarre desire to have a baby lately... for several months really. It's been driving me a little crazy actually. I don't know where it's coming from. The crazy part is that I SO do not have time for a baby at this point in life...LOL and I am no spring chicken. Although my best friend from High School is preggers with a baby right now. There are just so many factors against it. Not to mention the whole thought process in knowing how many children there are out there needing homes... how selfish does it seem that I would want to birth another one? Part of that selfishness comes from just the desire to share that piece of love with my husband... the love of my life, next to Christ.
The thing is that I cannot have a baby biologically any more...so the desire is kind of a moot one.
God showed me last night that I am blessed. I didn't forget that I am blessed.... but sometimes when you desire something so much you forget what you already have.
I HAVE 4 beautiful children.
I HAVE an amazing loving husband.
I HAVE great parents and mom in law.
I HAVE an amazing Best Friend.
I HAVE amazing friends to support and love me.
I HAVE a wonderful church home.
Best of all... I HAVE a Savior who knows me and loves me no matter what.
So maybe there will be a baby in my future... not biologically... and maybe not... either way... I am Better than Good.
Psalm 75:1 O God, we give thanks to you! We proclaim how great you are and tell of the wonderful things you have done.