I keep re-writing this post.... I am not sure what I want to say... my heart is full but jumbled a bit.
I feel like I want to do something. I want to make a difference. I want to sell all my belongings and move to Africa. lol... no not really (sort of) ;o)
Oddly I feel like adopting was the "easy" way out. Not that it's been easy, and not that I trivialize our beautiful children in any way. But they are here with us, in our comfortable home our comfortable lives and there is still so much more to do. Other children and families out there struggling.
I want to make a difference. I want people to see that there are children out there that need homes. Children with illness that can be controlled. Children that deserve more than any I can think of that need LOVE. Need a chance to have a mommy and daddy tuck them in, say prayers with them, fuss at them to eat their peas and make their beds. To kiss the boo boo's and hug them after a bad dream.
I want people to think "hey I can do that"... I see how God has planned this. And if they aren't able to adopt themselves( because I truly believe not all people are called to it) But to help those that can't. Adoption isn't cheap. But with the help of community it's do-able.
It takes a village to raise a child. We need more villages willing to step up and help make a difference.
I also want people to stand up and say, Enough is Enough! Enough people have died because of lack of medications and education. I need to do something. I need to say something. But how? How do I express what I would like to help with when there are so many people hurting right here in my back yard... perhaps that's where I need to start? In my back yard? And work outwards from there, but I want to start out there... and work in. ;o)
Will you join me in prayer for my jumbled heart to find a way to put it's pieces back together?