1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him.
Do you know that you are wonderfully made? No matter where you have been or what you have done, you are wonderfully made!!!
In my recent season of pruning I found out some interesting information about myself.
I am an ENTP.
Have you ever taken a Meyers Briggs personality test? I had not, but my company was offering it and everyone in my office took it… so I did. Interesting out come really. ENTP. It means I an an Extroverted iNtuitive Thinking Percept-er.
There’s like a book of explanation about it, but I won’t bore you. When I read it however I wasn’t sure I was happy that this was my personality. It’s not all that flattering for women to be ENTP’s…lol It did however explain A LOT about why I do some of the things I do. It also shed light on some places that I wanted to pray to God about refining in me. Those area’s that I knew I needed some work in.
Yesterday morning I started to feel kind of discouraged about some of those area’s and last night God gave me the Psalm 139 verse about being wonderfully made. I felt as if he were saying to me that He made me… He knit me in my mother’s womb…He created my inmost being. God don’t make no junk! :) He loves me just the way I am. He also loves me enough not to leave me that way. :)
I came across a video I had taken of E-Man from 2 months after he came home to us. He was still healing from the many lesions and moluscum. He was looking kinda rough… but man to see the beauty under the surface. He was beautifully and wonderfully made. I can’t tell you how I praise Jesus that He chose us to be his family. That He chose us to see past the exterior and make this child ours.
Even with all the frustrations we have had with N, I wouldn’t change being his mother for a minute. He’s got a light that shines brighter than you can imagine. You can’t look at his face, into his eyes and not see the joy that radiates from him.
He is beautifully and wonderfully made. I have been chosen to love him, find joy in him, and instill the joy of the Lord in him.
You are beautifully and wonderfully made. Bask in that knowledge today, knowing that He loves you just the way you are…. flaws and all!