This morning N said to me “Momma, there is a party in my heart, that’s why I have so much energy!”
After marveling about his choice of words, and loving what comes out of his mouth sometimes I began to think about it more.
Do I have a party in my heart? I WANT a party in my heart.
I of course had to post his funny on FB, and my dear friend said he must have gotten it from me because she thinks of me with a party in my heart.
I have to be honest, I haven’t felt much like a party lately. The pain of leaving behind my family, friends and boys in Ethiopia has really taken it’s toll on me this time. I was afraid it would happen this way… I would go over and it would be harder this time than any other to come home and it has been. Not home to my family, but back here where things are……different.
So this morning as I pondered the partying heart I read this scripture, “The Lord is my strength and shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.--Psalm 28:7”
Sounds like a party in someone’s heart to me!
Think God’s trying to tell me something? Yeah me too… like stop being sad about leaving… start being happy about being there.
I began to envision my heart being so full of love both from and for so many people that how can it be anything but joyful and thankful? How many people GET to be loved by and love so many diverse people? My chosen family rocks! I GET to go to Ethiopia and love and be loved. I am privileged to have a heart that has been overrun with love for people here AND there.
It’s a privilege to have my heart broken for the children in Koreh, the students in Lafto, the momma’s with hiv and the children still waiting for families. This is national adoption month and on National Adoption day while others were here spreading awareness, I was WITH orphans, loving on them and praying over them and sharing with them how special they are…. What is sad about that?
It was a gift that my family here allowed me to leave them for a week because I missed my family there. That my husband held down the fort and said…”Go”
So today I chose to believe the ache that is in my heart as I yearn for those so far away, is really just an ache from it being stretched so far out of place because it’s so very very full.